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I AM SUPER DUPER GIGA TERA HAPPY ALREADY.

its Q&A time again

Q) its year-end, do you have any holiday plans in your mind? oh my god, you are going m.i.a again?
A) yes baby. yes.


Q) what plans exactly?
A) i don't know. i may pop out unexpectedly when you aren't expecting me at all. merry christmas and happy new year everyone!


Q) m.i.a for how long?
A) let me see how long i can go.


Q) let's do a wrap up for this year. are you doing great this year?
A) not that bad. earn a couple, learn a lot, lost some.


Q) can i conclude that you are quite happy this year?
A) oh boy, i am beyond heaven!


Q) tell us the most happiest incident happened this year?
A) watched series of american dad with trunky. simply blissful.


Q) do you feel blessed?
A) yes indeed. with great friends, good colleagues, super lover, incredible parents and an awesome half mother. :D


Q) tell us a particular day you jumped in joy?
A) when i got my baby viva. wtf5183.


Q) tell us a particular day you felt like banging your head to the wall?
A) when i dented my baby. i feel like crap and just wanted to bomb my office building.


Q) how you got over it?
A) i told my baby, its ok. a little scratch will make you look more brutal. i will paint you in black soon. hush baby, hush.


Q) anyone you wish to fire he/she up?
A) just a little bit. was angry and upset, but got over after a while. can't be bothered for petty matters like this.


Q) any wish list?
A) dear god, i will be extremely good next year. can you please spare me your mercy, drop me some money, a watch, a handbag, plentiful of clothes and more time with trunky, thank you. yes, i am shallow.


Q) why are you asking and answering all the questions by yourself?
A) i don't know. i think because i like to talk to myself.


Q) what is your feeling at this moment?
A) i should get nasi lemak for breakfast tomorrow.

should i or should i not

was contemplating whether i should do this or not.

i suck big time at handicraft.

what if it looks like a piece of shit.

what if its too heavy to carry back.

should i or should i not.

who is your bff?

i've been pondering after i read pariah 3's entry on bff. what's twirling in my mind is that what are the criteria to become my bff.

i think deep, and i thought hard. finally i have a perfect candidate who is so irreplaceable, that no one else in the world can understand me better than he/she does.

for he/she knows the right time to shut up when i am not in the mood.

for he/she pops out of no where and gives me whole lots of surprises. he/she knows i love surprises.

for he/she ignores me when i am talking crap.

for he/she understands there are times i need to be alone.

for he/she accepts my mistakes and flaws because he/she knows no human being in this world is perfect.

for he/she would not condemn me even if i pair my flip flops with proper attire.

for he/she showers me with admiration and love because i am an attention whore, sometimes.

not any one in the world can read me better then he/she does.

my bff is a shy and low profile person. he/she refused to post for me. i've only managed to capture part of his/her look before he/she run off.




everybody, meet bluey anonymous.




i am so sorry. i have no idea you are a male or female, but we are still best friends right?


don't judge. human beings are too superficial and judgmental that is why there's no best friend forever between us, the same species.

this year . one season . coogee beach

for once i decided not to contaminate pictures i took with my crappy comments.

coogee is just so beautiful.

too beautiful, that i can't stop myself falling in love again and again with this place.

this year . all seasons . this chapter

yeap. loving every lines of this chapter.

the rocks puppet cottage

when i was a child, i'd always think that puppets are scary. some of them look so real that i believe they may come alive at night, sneaking underneath your bed looking at you while you are asleep.

i bumped into a puppet shop one day while i was lurking in The Rocks. walking in the small basement shop which boasts over thousands of puppets is akin to breaking into a time capsule. you may see puppets aged more than 150 years old, that's even older than your grandmother.

i like the experience of strolling in the puppet land. i can tell that this place will be a party at night, when all the puppets revive.

yes, i still believe they will come alive at night.



the puppet cottage at the rocks



her porcelain skin looks so real and she looks so stuck up too



party crowd!


i don't like clowns too

hello, my name is bitch and i won't shut my mouth until you think i am right

some people are just uber funny.

i don't know about you or others, maybe it is just me. i just can't stand people whose constantly wanting to win in order to make themselves look good at any single minute, or shall i say, even every nano second if you want me to count it precisely.

like this is not bad enough, they like to put words in your mouth. as though they read your thoughts and they can phrase it better than you do. but what irk me the most is, they think you owe them big time because they did the talking for you. Generally, they talk faster than you do, judging people in the speed of light and always thought that the whole world besides themselves lives in misery.

yes. i am talking about you. funny enough, i believe there are species like you lurking everywhere to abuse anyone they meet.

so you think i sulk every day after leaving pure hell? or, i should be missing the moments when i was trying so very hard not to lose myself to punch you in the face? the most absurd remark you ever said was that i am now trying hard to keep my current job though i dislike the place so much? so your conclusion is, i could have been happy and contented if i just didn't quit?

seriously wtf, this must be the joke of the year.

the only thing i ever regretted was that i didn't sew kau your lips when i have the chance. bitch.

you make me happy

counting down again to the day we meet.

thinking of that day already bring me so much joy and happiness.

i really can't wait.

feel like smooching your face leaving tons and tons of saliva right this second.

damn salah in the heart and brain

damn salah.

its so salah right from the start.

sometimes what you said can be a jingle

i know i cannot be bothered anymore.

sometimes i am so sure that what you said didn't mean jack to me. i wouldn't give a flying kite to them. in fact, they couldn't mean any flying fucks to me.

no matter how much i was convinced that those words meant no harm to me anymore, the words that you said sprouted and grew, deeper and deeper. rubbing salts to my wounds and sores.

maybe you are right. i am trying hard. too hard indeed.

so hard that i can't go with the flow. too hard that things become awkward. i am straining myself too much that i couldn't let things go. like a kid with palm full of sweets that she couldn't pull her hand out of the jar. too greedy to let go some of the sweets.

i am too greedy that i want all. that is why i tried so hard and i ended up none.

i can't ditch it, really. i thought i had. it's already a jingle, twirling in my mind. jinxing i can never loved, nor be loved.

we can dwell on and on

i think we can do more amazing than this.

i love you.

:D

new job, me and hard rocky!

new job has been hectic, but the people i work with are pretty fun and crazy. i think that is the difference when you are working with veterans and a bunch of young people.

well, that is not the best part of the new job. the coolest is it is ooze with testosterone. not that i am desperate, it just feels so pamper to be the rare species among all man. guess you won't hear me complaining about sewing some bitches' effing mouths for the longest time.

also, i travelled in out back forth for events. the coolest was to work in Hard Rock Penang.

not only the hotel is pleasantly situated beside the beach. they have the longest swimming pool in Malaysia. beautiful murals are everywhere. the food was good. their milkshake was even more super duper. and the hotel staff are pretty helpful and friendly too.

me really likey! i feel like i want stay there for the rest of my life.

Hard Rock Penang, please hire me. i can be your pr/marcomm officer/bartender/fill in the blanks as long as i can stay there forever.

caption is lame



long long light bulbs. gotta see them at night!



don't know who they are, but i think they must be famous to be displayed in hard rocky



swimming pool is just a step from your room! damn cool right!



try to camwhore while working



nikki sixx's guitar. i have no idea who he is. wtf



chandeliers. i can so imagine my future home will be full of these



mural! beatles!



everyone is busy asking people to snap themselves in hard rocky



ladies' signage



snapping random stuff at some random angle to show that i am artistic

i miss you, this and that.

i miss you, subaru.

sometimes, it is too hard to convince myself on how i am suppose to live with or things supposed to be.

like how i am suppose to fall asleep by myself. or, how i should enjoy the quietness around me while allowing my thoughts run berserk before falling into deep slumber. or, how i can turn and toss around when i wake up given that i own the whole bed.

this is how i should be. i mean, being not so single but never available, i thought i would be contented this way.

you are no good. really not good for me.

you ruined my zen in a month time.

now i feel surreal when i am lying alone in my bed. almost like i've left part of me somewhere else, and i couldn't get them back anymore.

oh. maybe someday i could sort out a way to ease this disorientation or at least try to be peace with myself.

but not really now though.

lands and seas

apart by lands and seas.

sending loves and lusts across 6612km.

till the next time we meet, you are definitely worth waiting for.

absolutely.

oh, cold rock and chocolate banana scone.